On The Mend!

I have been trying to decide for a few days now if I even want to write this blog.. Deciding if I really feel comfortable putting myself out there for the whole world to see. But since I often do that in a lyrical sense, I eventually convinced myself in the hopes that it would be somehow therapeutic for me to put it all in writing. If anything, I will be able to look back and read this in the future and see how much my feelings have changed and maybe learn something from myself.

As I posted before, I have been going through a divorce, but this is not what this blog is about. The marriage I was in was loveless for a long time and we were both done with this relationship by the time we finally ended it. What this blog IS about, is the girl that I dated for a short time after splitting up with the ex-wife.

As with any Love and relationship, there are 3 sides to how the relationship goes. There are the two side of each of the lovers individually and then the outside perspective of everyone that is around the couple during the relationship. It is hard to figure out what perspective is more accurate. The view of the couple is based mostly on emotion. They see and feel the chemical and emotional bond between them, and they know how each other interacts on a one to one basis. The outside perspective is un-bias in an emotional sense. They will look at the logic of the relationship which isn’t always accurate because the outside perspective has no knowledge of the private bond between the couple. The reality of the relationship is probably somewhere in the middle!

The reason I mention all of this, is because the relationship that I was in was not very approved by a lot of people. The perspective of the outsiders was that we were just playing around and in a rebound relationship that was based on nothing but fun. Of course the perspective of us in the relationship was that we were completely in love and we connected on a personal level that no one but us can understand. I am not going to get into the why’s and what’s, but the relationship ended. It was a very new experience for me because I have never had a relationship end this way. We were happy and very much in love, but broke up as a life decision. That is a very hard pill to swallow for me because I am a believer in what the Beatles say “All we need is Love” and everything else won’t matter as long as you are happy and in Love. But not everyone has a whimsical sense of things like I do. And so, the relationship ended, by decision, based on what would be best for the lives of the people involved.

So now I am moving on. I am constantly having to deal with hearing that outside perspective of what people saw and viewed our relationship to be. I hear things like “It was bound to happen” or “it was just a rebound anyway” or a hundred other insulting comments that are hard to hear when you know the other side. So to all those people, I just want to say…. No matter if you are right or wrong. Maybe it was a disaster from the start, but the truth is, for a short time I WAS TRULY HAPPY. So please spare me your attempts at making me feel better and just be happy for me that I had that time and experience!