As it should be....
Do you believe in fate? That things happen for a reason? karma? Soul mates? I have often pondered these kind of things. Although I may be a skeptic, I can't help but see what happens right in front of my eyes and in my heart. When Jamie and I decided that we do want a child together, it was before my grandson was born. My daughter was in high school, my boys lived with their Mom and only came for 2 weekends a month. All we had in the house was Jamie's daughter and my daughter. Of course being a teenager, my daughter would either be out somewhere or locked in her room, so the house seemed pretty empty most of the time. Jamie and I have always felt that we were perfect for each other. We have the same interests, and even the same thought process most of the time. We make the same decisions and it seems that we know what each other are thinking. Most of the time, one of us will start a conversation that is based on what the other was thinking about at that moment. I know it sounds cliche and maybe exaggerated, but we are connected on a level that neither of us has ever known, or even believed could be possible. We always thought that it was such a shame that we couldn't produce a life out of such an amazing bond. We did the research, found out it was possible, and decided that we did want that. The house was empty and we wanted to have another child around. Then we found out that my daughter was pregnant... At first I locked up and said "that's it, its over. We can't have a baby now." But, when the dust settled. I still wanted a baby with Jamie. So we went through with the surgery (see my previous post) and started on the journey to conceive.
The first weekend in May was our first real 2 week wait from trying to conceive to taking a pregnancy test. Jamie and I went camping and four-wheeling by ourselves that weekend because we didn't have any of the kids. We camped Friday night and came back on Saturday because we had plans to take Jerzie to Lagoon on Sunday morning. We had talked about when we were going to take a pregnancy test, we both felt pretty confident that this could be the month that it happened. We were tempted to test Saturday night, but everyone knows that it is best to test first thing in the morning, so we waited. On Sunday morning, I woke up to Jamie saying "babe, wake up, I think there is a line" I jumped out of bed like a kid who just realized it was Christmas morning. I ran into the bathroom, and sure enough, there were 2 lines on that test "THAT IS A POSITIVE, WE ARE PREGNANT!!!"
Not in my wildest dreams did I really think it would happen this fast, and never closed my mind to the fact that it may not happen at all. It is amazing to know that our entire journey to this point was all worth it. That we will actually be able to have a baby together. Over the next couple of days, we did about a hundred of those tests just to "be sure" and that second line kept getting darker. We didn't really want to tell anyone until we had been to the doctor and confirmed, but there was no doubt these tests were positive. It was just before Mother's Day, so we had to think of a good way to tell our parents. We took a picture of a positive test, added some words, and put it in a frame for each of our Mothers. They of course were so excited for us, and for having a new grandbaby!
As I said in the title of the post, everything feels like it is as it should be. Our lives constantly just fit into place like it is just supposed to be that way. Everything feels natural and although we work hard and try to create the best life possible for our family, it still all just seems to fall into place when we put our mind to something that we want. What an amazing family we have, I can't wait for this new little one to join us. My anticipation is driving me crazy. Will it be a boy or girl? What will this baby look like? What kind of personality will this child have? When will we get to meet him/her? I can't wait for all of these questions to be answered, but for now we are enjoying the thoughts of what will be. We have since been to the doctors, and here is the first picture of our little bean! Due on January 16th (my Moms birthday), and it can't come soon enough.
The first weekend in May was our first real 2 week wait from trying to conceive to taking a pregnancy test. Jamie and I went camping and four-wheeling by ourselves that weekend because we didn't have any of the kids. We camped Friday night and came back on Saturday because we had plans to take Jerzie to Lagoon on Sunday morning. We had talked about when we were going to take a pregnancy test, we both felt pretty confident that this could be the month that it happened. We were tempted to test Saturday night, but everyone knows that it is best to test first thing in the morning, so we waited. On Sunday morning, I woke up to Jamie saying "babe, wake up, I think there is a line" I jumped out of bed like a kid who just realized it was Christmas morning. I ran into the bathroom, and sure enough, there were 2 lines on that test "THAT IS A POSITIVE, WE ARE PREGNANT!!!"
Not in my wildest dreams did I really think it would happen this fast, and never closed my mind to the fact that it may not happen at all. It is amazing to know that our entire journey to this point was all worth it. That we will actually be able to have a baby together. Over the next couple of days, we did about a hundred of those tests just to "be sure" and that second line kept getting darker. We didn't really want to tell anyone until we had been to the doctor and confirmed, but there was no doubt these tests were positive. It was just before Mother's Day, so we had to think of a good way to tell our parents. We took a picture of a positive test, added some words, and put it in a frame for each of our Mothers. They of course were so excited for us, and for having a new grandbaby!As I said in the title of the post, everything feels like it is as it should be. Our lives constantly just fit into place like it is just supposed to be that way. Everything feels natural and although we work hard and try to create the best life possible for our family, it still all just seems to fall into place when we put our mind to something that we want. What an amazing family we have, I can't wait for this new little one to join us. My anticipation is driving me crazy. Will it be a boy or girl? What will this baby look like? What kind of personality will this child have? When will we get to meet him/her? I can't wait for all of these questions to be answered, but for now we are enjoying the thoughts of what will be. We have since been to the doctors, and here is the first picture of our little bean! Due on January 16th (my Moms birthday), and it can't come soon enough.
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